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Lord, please, if it’s not gonna be us…. ilayo mo na lang po ako.

counseling..

I feel kinda relieved. I was able to talk to one of our church counselors. Thank you also for the prayer.

Purpose…..

Lord, I believe everything you allowed to happen wasn’t an accident. Purpose and reason are behind the situation. Just please do not depart from me. I was able to survive 2010 because of you, please be with me throughout this year and for the coming years. You taught me one big lesson, that is to completely trust in you, dahil may mga sitwasyon at pangyayari na wala na sa kamay namin ang kontrol at solusyon. Your ways are not our ways.. definitely malayong malayong malayo. No matter how clever, bright and brilliant our minds are, it is still you who knows everything and who has the power to control and do everything. Thank you for being the author of this life.

God Gave Me You..

For all the times I felt cheated, I complained
You know how I love to complain
For all the wrongs I repeated, though I was to blame
I still cursed that rain
I didn’t have a prayer, didn’t have a clue
Then out of the blue

God gave me you to show me what’s real
There’s more to life than just how I feel
And all that I’m worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn’t know why
Now I do, ’cause God gave me you

For all the times I wore my self pity like a favorite shirt
All wrapped up in that hurt
For every glass I saw, I saw half empty
Now it overflows like a river through my soul
From every doubt I had, I’m finally free
I truly believe

God gave me you to show me what’s real
There’s more to life than just how I feel
And all that I’m worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn’t know why
Now I do, ’cause God gave me you

In your arms I’m someone new
With ever tender kiss from you
Oh must confess
I’ve been blessed

God gave me you to show me what’s real
There’s more to life than just how I feel
And all that I’m worth is right before my eyes
And all that I live for though I didn’t know why (didn’t know why)
Now I do (I finally do), ’cause God gave me you (God gave me You)

God gave me you

hmmmmm…

hmmmmm…. feeling happy yet confused. Tell you why, soon…….

am back….

Wow, I did my first blog last year 2009 month of June pa. Tagal ko nag-hibernate, hahaha! But seriouly, dami daming nangyari. Ngayon, I feel blessed naman kasi I’m in the process of moving on na. Mahirap, pero ito na talaga eh, gotta move on. I shouldn’t dwell forever sa mga pangit na nangyari and besides I’m still blessed in so many ways sa kabila ng lahat. Honestly, I laugh hard, crack jokes, go out w/ my friends and laugh w/ them, but the reality is that  I’m emotionally wounded and need to collect my thoughts again.  Struggle ako for the longest time and yet glad because God had given me chance to make it up to him. Ganun pala talaga yun noh, hindi mo overnight marerealize yung mga bagay bagay, it will definitely take time. Ako, everyday parang laging my revelation si Lord. Gradually, naiisip ko yung mga naging pagkakamali ko, kasalanan tsaka mga pagkukulang. Pakonti konti nagiging clear na ung mga bagay bagay, though ngayon hindi pa talaga lahat. Pero, I trust God, one day I will understand why he let those things came to pass. I’m giving all my cares upon Him. I believe in His plans for me and I will forever stand to it.      

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still thinking…. hanggang klan kya ako magiicp o magiicp pa nga ba ko?…..